Running on empty

Tuesday, 9 May 2017

Hello! Today is kind of a life update post:

It is 6.21am and I've been awake for an hour as the baby decided he was so awake that he wanted to wake the rest of the house with him. He is now snoring on me and I am too awake to go back to bed.

I've got the guilt again.

The 'I'm-not-doing-enough' guilt.

I went to bed last night completely done in. It's been a long week with different issues cropping up, and the result is exhaustion (and mouth ulcers. Lovely lovely stress-induced mouth ulcers). I felt like my bones ached when I attempted to put the kids to bed.

And then somehow this happened:


That is me, hair scraped back, make-up-free, chapped-lipped, and far too tired to ensure the kids were asleep in their actual beds.

Some days are just like this: you feel like a hamster on a wheel, running the same circles all day and never actually getting anywhere. You start to get wrapped up in our own little microbubble of stress. The big picture feels really unclear. And when you go online, scrolling through Instagram and Facebook while the kids both snore incredibly loudly next to you, instead of relief you find masses of people that seem to be achieving every goal and doing All The Impressive Things and checking off everything on their list and generally being a much more productive and useful human being than you are.

So here's what I'm going to do over the next couple of days: I'm going to step away from the internet (after posting this, obviously). Instead, in my spare moments, I'm going to catch up on some reading. I'm going to attempt to tackle the laundry bomb that has gone off upstairs. I'm going to make my daughter tidy up her bedroom. And then I'm going to play and be silly with the kids. And then when Jellybean is next out, I'm going to get the baby to go to flipping sleep and then write all day long because I want to, not because I have bloggers guilt.

Okay?!

Okay.

That's it really. Just keeping it real, in case there's people out there like me who are not currently achieving all the things they want to, and can therefore relate ;)

I'll see you in a few days, hopefully!

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10 comments:

  1. I love this. Bloggers Guilt is a real thing!
    #twinklytuesday

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    1. Thank you. Yes it definitely is!

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  2. Hi, I'm sure many of us have bloggers guilt. Enjoy your time away from the internet catching up and I hope you get to read a good book #TwinklyTuesday

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    1. Thank you - I've really enjoyed the break! x

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  3. Oh hun, we are all like you! I promise. It is so easy for social media to portray us in a light of perfection but in reality, we are all tired and struggling some days. You are not alone. I hope you've managed to switch off and have some lovely time with the kids. Thanks for linking up with #TwinklyTuesday

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    1. Thank you! I did manage to switch off, and I also caught up on loads of house jobs that were annoying me, so it was definitely worth having a break. Thinking of scheduling breaks from social media in the future! x

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  4. Last night we slept all five of us in our bed - I'd have bought a super king if I'd known! #twinklytuesday

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    1. Haha! It's so lovely to snuggle up sometimes (except when you get an elbow in the face ...) x

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